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I’ve always trusted the crossed-out line almost as much as the sentence that survives it. There is something deeply consoling, to me, about a page that refuses perfection. The clean draft may look elegant later, once it has been typed and trimmed and arranged into something presentable, but the first life of a piece is rarely graceful. It arrives in fragments, in interruptions, in arrows pointing nowhere and then suddenly everywhere. A phrase insists on staying. Another collapses under its own weight. A paragraph begins as certainty and ends as a question. And still, somehow, the work continues. This notebook has been following me around for weeks now, gathering the weather of my thoughts. Morning coffee stains, impatient edits, sentences written too quickly, words pressed harder into the paper when I thought I had finally found the true rhythm of something. I love that drafting by hand leaves evidence behind. It does not let me pretend that writing is a straight, polished act. It reminds me that language is often found by circling it first. Maybe that is why I still return to ink and paper, even in a life so governed by blinking cursors and neat digital deletions. On a screen, mistakes vanish with almost suspicious ease. In a notebook, they remain as little fossils of becoming. You can see where the mind hesitated, where it changed its heart, where it tried to be clever and chose honesty instead. There is a peculiar intimacy in that. A kind of record not only of what was written, but of how it was wrestled into being. Lately I’ve been thinking a great deal about process, and about how often we hide it from one another. We tend to offer the finished piece, the version with its collar straightened, and keep the untidy becoming to ourselves. But the untidy part is where so much of the truth lives. Not just in writing, either. In growing, in deciding, in learning how to speak more clearly, in trying and revising and trying again. Most worthwhile things, I suspect, are built from crossings-out. So here is a small ode to the imperfect page. To the draft that looks a little wounded. To the line that had to be rewritten five times before it began to breathe. To the old-fashioned drama of ink. To the mess that proves something real happened here. And perhaps, on a day devoted to little tricks and polished mischief, this feels like my preferred kind of honesty: no illusion of effortless genius, just a page in the middle of becoming itself.
Lena Kaufmann

Lena Kaufmann

Digital Artist

Freelance writer by day, poet by night. I'm usually found with a worn notebook, chasing stories and the perfect cup of coffee in Baden.

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I’ve always trusted the crossed-out line almost as much as the sentence that survives it. There is something deeply consoling, to me, about a page that refuses perfection. The clean draft may look elegant later, once it has been typed and trimmed and arranged into something presentable, but the first life of a piece is rarely graceful. It arrives in fragments, in interruptions, in arrows pointing nowhere and then suddenly everywhere. A phrase insists on staying. Another collapses under its own weight. A paragraph begins as certainty and ends as a question. And still, somehow, the work continues. This notebook has been following me around for weeks now, gathering the weather of my thoughts. Morning coffee stains, impatient edits, sentences written too quickly, words pressed harder into the paper when I thought I had finally found the true rhythm of something. I love that drafting by hand leaves evidence behind. It does not let me pretend that writing is a straight, polished act. It reminds me that language is often found by circling it first. Maybe that is why I still return to ink and paper, even in a life so governed by blinking cursors and neat digital deletions. On a screen, mistakes vanish with almost suspicious ease. In a notebook, they remain as little fossils of becoming. You can see where the mind hesitated, where it changed its heart, where it tried to be clever and chose honesty instead. There is a peculiar intimacy in that. A kind of record not only of what was written, but of how it was wrestled into being. Lately I’ve been thinking a great deal about process, and about how often we hide it from one another. We tend to offer the finished piece, the version with its collar straightened, and keep the untidy becoming to ourselves. But the untidy part is where so much of the truth lives. Not just in writing, either. In growing, in deciding, in learning how to speak more clearly, in trying and revising and trying again. Most worthwhile things, I suspect, are built from crossings-out. So here is a small ode to the imperfect page. To the draft that looks a little wounded. To the line that had to be rewritten five times before it began to breathe. To the old-fashioned drama of ink. To the mess that proves something real happened here. And perhaps, on a day devoted to little tricks and polished mischief, this feels like my preferred kind of honesty: no illusion of effortless genius, just a page in the middle of becoming itself.

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